How I was feeling this morning

A letter to end all letters

  How do I begin? How do I express the emotions that course through me and give me thoughts I’ve never had before? How have I come from a smiling child to a crying young adult? What transitions in my life have led up to this exact moment in time? Why am I writing something that no one but me should read? Why am I passing the burden of my life experiences on to YOU?

I do it because I must, I do it because if I do not I will become a shell of a person. This release will hopefully put me back on track, the path in which I must choose now. That is what adults tell me, I have to figure out what I want to do in life right now, at this exact moment. Who at the age I am, wants to be so definite in what they want. We are fickle people, who change their minds constantly; must I be the one person in this world who cannot?

!$%&

Let's start out with hello. Hi I am Akiva Naive and I am depressed today.
I am depressed for no reason that I can see. For the last few months I have been coming in and out of conscious bubbles where I can see what I want and what I don't.

Reasons for my depressive 'tude;lets take some wild stabs at guessing.
 1. Not going to college this semester.
 2. Constantly having family ride me like a jockey rides a prize winning horse.
 3. Not having a life outside of work
 4. Maybe its my lack of sex
 5. Just wanting to get away from it all but be held back like with a       rubberband.

I want to this to be interactive, so if you have ever been in a mood of discomfort, tell me about how you got out of your funk!